Publisher's Synopsis
My Name is Rosy Jane my work colleagues where l work call me RJ for Short. I live in a single apartment in Chelsea l'm age 26 writing blogs blogs for lady's magazines about Designer Handbag's and Pure's l've recently changed jobs. I've never thought of having a relationship with a male. All l wanted was to live a happy life. I've all had the feeling that one day every lady will meet the true love of dream's. All l'd like to see is one day a man who's respectable and telling me the words l love you occasionally. I all ways think the first kiss is the one that matters the most and you should never give them all away. I'm the new girl where l work so it's hard to make friends. Through the time of being employed l form a friendship with one of my male colleagues which formed from a tap on the shoulder one day l was on my way to work when l was leaving the train and l left my kindle on the seat on the train. I was asked your that new girl and from there onwards our friendship started to build a relationship. I started to enjoy the company of going out and doing different things but with relationships all different type of things can take place. In my Case our relationship was perfect then there was a number of things which started to take place which l could never find answer's for. It started to become stress full and there was times where l was feeling isolated from the outside world. Even though l was in a relationship l found it difficult too approach Zebu to explain to him how l was feeling because l didn't know what would he think of me apart from thinking l'm crazy. I made appointments to get some advice and help but it was like facing a brick wall the one person l loved l kept on pushing him away from me. I felt awful not only for me but for him as well it was a feeling l couldn't explain apart from running around in circles. I love you was all Zebu kept saying he had a nice name which seemed special. When we first met and we started to spend time together l found Zebu being special there was things he did to me which made me feel special. Why did l keep pushing Zebu away. Zebu always said he would be there for me but l needed my own space and time to understand what was taking place with myself. It all started from one day when l was at my apartment drinking a glass of red wine and l kept feeling all these type of strange pains which led to tears and more pain. As for Zebu he wrote a song which he singed in front of me l was very emotional and l needed to go home. Zebu asked me if everything was ok l couldn't tell him the real reason why l wanted to go home beacuse there was a number of things which l wouldn't find normal for any lady. Some of my appointments was private but it was even harder in the long run to explain what other two appointments l had arranged and who it was with. I found it all scary l had never experienced anything like this in my life all the things l'd wish for was too speak to my parents but they are no longer a live l'm the only child. Zebu kept throwing pieces of screwed up paper at me to draw my attention but l just couldn't respond to him it was hard working a round some one who you have a relationship with all l wanted to do is be left alone which is what l told Zebu but not in so many words l'm sure he would understand if l told him what is actually taking place but at the moment it wasn't the right time and place. Zebu adored me a lot all the time we spent together and he always use to say l love you. I deeply fell in love with Zebu it was Romance at first sight the night l enjoyed is when we both went to the Theatre to watch a premier it was a romantic night l'd never forget but l was still left with all these problems the suffering of pain. It was a relationship which went from good to bad from heartache to pain from being isolated from the world and no answers in the end l accept the fact there was help and there was comfort and there was also joy and celebration wh