Publisher's Synopsis
In this memoir of youth in the 1970s and 1980s, Steve Bell tells with eye-watering honesty what drove him to flirt with death on treacherous mountains. He seeks manhood in the mountains, yet he believes he will only truly gain it by losing something. Harrowing escapades in Scotland, the Alps and Alaska are interspersed by excruciating sexual encounters and unsettling hitch-hiking rides. When the mountains fail him, he seeks meaning with a religious cult in Colorado. Eventually he succeeds in his quest, only to find that he's lost more than he bargained for.
