Publisher's Synopsis
Eight years have passed since that first appointment with her therapist. She never expected then that he would become the most important person in her life. In an easy to read format, the author shares with the Reader a true and intensely personal account of her therapy, transference and "forced termination." It is the story of intense pain, great joy and the impact a therapist can have on his patients. This book, based on a real patient's experiences, delves deeply into the psyche of a client and attempts through essay, letters and poems to express the deep, intimate emotions a client feels during a strong "therapeutic alliance" and "forced termination." Like a thought-provoking novel, these writings show the wide range and depth of feelings elicited through deeply intimate emotional exchanges over an 8 year period. When the author receives word her much loved and respected therapist will be leaving in a year and moving out of state, her world is shattered as her life begins to spiral out of control. When he does indeed depart, the grieving begins in earnest, as she is catapulted into the final stages of the therapeutic process. Her fervent hope is by opening up her life and her grief to the general public, individuals will learn therapy from the "inside out" and they will understand they are not alone. We are all the same...but different. Describing therapy, the author writes: Therapy is the most wonderful, gut wrenching experience. Sometimes I marvelled at the trust I had in this man. I never asked, but I often wondered if all his clients opened up to him as freely as I did. I cried, I sobbed, I was overwhelmed with emotion. But I also giggled and laughed often. It was like being with a best friend. A very intelligent best friend. A friend who gave advice worth listening to and following. A friend who only cared about your well being. A friend you would trust with your most personal private thoughts and emotions. One who would laugh with you, but never at you. A friend you could depend on no matter what you said or did. Why would anyone NOT want to go to therapy? People with mental illnesses and emotional disturbances often feel so alone. As though we are the only ones suffering with these occasionally dark, often irrational, thought processes. A therapist will let us know we are not alone - we are not pathetic - we are just human beings doing the best we can each and every day. Just knowing that is empowering. I used to feel like a cocoon burst open but no butterfly appeared - there was just an empty space inside - the butterfly had died preparing to spread it's wings. Now, after being counselled by D, the very best therapist ever, the butterfly can fly once again.
