Publisher's Synopsis
Who is God? Who am I to God? What is His character, His power, His nature? What is His purpose? What is His purpose for me? How does He relate to me? This is my personal spiritual journey. God's Natural and Moral Attributes are in everything that He does. I want to try to relate His actions with who my Creator is and why He does what He does. I am called to let you hear our conversations and make you a part of it. As I look back now, the same today as then: what is in my heart is much bigger and much clearer than the small paragraphs presented. The sentences do not seem coherent but if you read the chapter and the verse of the Scripture, each sentence is a summary of what is in my heart. My mind cannot put into words what it is I am actually saying. I am unable to convey what the Holy Spirit inside of me is crying out - too deep for human words. May these words be interpreted into your heart and may you understand what it is I am trying to say.His Natural Attributes of How He is in Himself are Omniscient, Omnipotent, Omnipresent, Eternal, Immutable, Self-Existent, Self-Sufficient, Infinite, Incomprehensible, Transcendent, and Sovereign.His Moral Attributes of How He relates to His Creation are Holy, Gracious, Merciful, Longsuffering, Righteous, Just, Loving, Good, Wise, Truthful, Faithful, Wrathful, and Jealous.This is my own personal Spiritual Autobiography. What is important about Judges for me is the Bible moves from concrete to more visual stories. It is real world, real life applications to things today. It is things I can make, and see in mind's eye. All children learn this way. I truly believe in first concrete to visual to abstract in order to understand something. Then it seems that in Judges He moves from the concrete to the visual. After my deep meditation and study of Judges and lots of prayer, I understand why the Muslim community does not accept Israel as a people or a country. I do not know if I do anymore either. I consider myself Jewish. I did not feel not-Jewish until I moved to a community that judged me from day one. When they told me I was not Jewish and that I had no right to say the prayers that I say or do the things that I do. A woman even went as far to say that I did not deserve to be Jewish because I have not earned it. I still do not know what that means today. So through the years, I have learned that because I believe in Jesus Christ as the Word of God and that He is His Son that I can never be Jewish. Jesus is the drawing line. But I will never be fully Christian either because I do not and will not worship Jesus Christ. Jesus is not my savior, nor my salvation. And I do not need Jesus in any way. I am a daughter of God just as He is a Son of God. Yes, Jesus is stronger than I am. His prayers of the people are a raging fire ascending to God the Father. Yes, He walks on water and yes, He is perfect. But I am Daddy's Little Girl. I do not have the same rules He has. I get away with murder and sin every second. It is easier for me to sin than it is for me not to sin. My small flame lit in the darkness is just as received as the raging fire of Jesus. I know I will never be as good as Him but I am just as accepted as He is. He is my mentor and my teacher, my personal rabbi. Because I know this to be true, I do not worship Him. I do not take Communion. I am diligent to light my candles and have bread and wine every Friday. I pray for the Word, for my Father to strengthen Him, encourage Him, and comfort Him. I pray for Him every day. I worship my Creator in my way. In the way that my Creator wants me to worship, and He is very clear that I am not to worship His Son. It is not for everyone. I feel the pressure on my chest every Sunday as I pray if this is the Sunday, I take Communion and bow before the Word, with the hand holding my chest to stay where I am. I am to stand there and to be present. This is my walk. Thank you for listening.