Mama's Heart

I‛ll Carry You My Child ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ I just remember praying so silently, "Dear Jesus, will you please take my trembling hand?" Lord can‛t you see, I‛m losing all of my courage, I‛m weak, my legs are shaking, and I can barely stand. I know that you see this door in front of me, my precious daughter is resting in peace on the other side. I am just so afraid of seeing what I most want to see, "Lord, Do you think, this time, you could carry me inside?" Then Jesus said, "My child you must have forgotten, for this surely isn‛t the very first time. You‛ve had other troubling times in your life, as I did then, I‛ll carry you now, and you will be just fine." I can‛t tell you this won‛t be painful, for it will, there will be things that you won‛t want to see. But someday even painful memories become cherished, and they‛ll remain "deep, in the heart of you and me." Don‛t you remember the day that you followed me child, as we walked lazily along in the sand? There was only "one set of footprints" then, don‛t you know, "my child, I‛ll carry you again?" 18 MARY J. BOOMHOWER Did You See The Angels? ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Danni, "Did you see the angels hovering near, and did you ask them to please go away?" "Did you tell them you would go another time, but that you just couldn‛t go that day?" Danni, "Did you tell them you were on your way home, and that I was counting the minutes to see you?" "Did you tell them your new life had barely begun, and that you still had so many things to do?" Danni, "Did you tell them, that you really loved "The Lord," and you would gladly go to Heaven someday?" "Did you tell them that we hadn‛t said our good-byes, and that you just couldn‛t leave me that way?" Danni, "Did you tell them that your mama wasn‛t that strong," and that I just couldn‛t bear losing my child?" "Did you tell them how we had to hug every day, and how much I would miss your smile!" MAMA'S HEART 19 Our Last Cuddle ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ All signs of life were gone from you, when I first saw you that day. The pain that you had suffered, was still on your face, and I wanted so badly to take it away. I needed to wrap my arms around you, and to give you lots of baby kisses. Just the way we did when you were small, and when you had all of those "near misses!" I gently blew kisses over your body, while I prayed that you safely made it "home." Then I really thought I heard you say, "Mama, please cuddle me once more, while we‛re alone." I really wanted to lye down beside you, and wrap you up so tightly in my arms. I wanted assurance you‛d never know pain again, I‛d gladly lay there forever, protecting you from harm. I just went to my knees praying, Lord Jesus, will you please, please hold my hand? She had so much life left to live Lord, I just don‛t understand! Lord, you know I‛ve lost my precious child, and I don‛t know what to do. This is the hardest time in my life I‛ve ever known, and now Lord, I need so much help from you! 20 MARY J. BOOMHOWER Footprints On My Heart ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ How very softly you tip-toed into my world, almost silently, and only a moment you stayed. I wasn‛t prepared to let you go, and never dreamed you‛d go away. I remember the day you took your first step, and how it made a footprint on my heart. I never thought your life would be so brief, or how soon we‛d have to say goodbye and part. I used to think of the day you‛d marry, and wonder about the man you‛d choose. I prayed you‛d find the ri