Publisher's Synopsis
The reason I have decided to publish my diary is to address the question, is it right to fall in love with an idol? What is it like to be in love with a Kpop idol? Is it healthy to be in love with an idol? I decided to go ahead and share my deepest thoughts and desires with the world because I am not the only one who has truly fallen in love with an idol. I know I am just a fan, and it should stay that way, but this diary shows the fight and desperation one can feel when they are kept from the one that they love, and how unrequited love can destroy a person from the inside out. I would never dream of hurting my kpop star. This diary also shows how close one can come to the brink of madness for someone they desire. This man is more than an Idol to me. He's someone I want to give my all to. But at the same time, I know better than to cross that line.
For his privacy, I wasn't sure whether or not I should change his name. So, for some entries I have changed his name to Angel. But there are hints as to what his name is in some entries, cause some entries are answering on who, where, how, why, and what. If you do figure out what his name is, I won't be mad. Part of me wants everyone to know. I am not ashamed of the love I feel for him. Another point I want to add is, a lot of these entries are inspired by songs I was listening to in that moment, hence why there are all the song references, and song lyrics.
