Publisher's Synopsis
Alvie Janssen's life is a mess, with his parents and brother killed in a shipwreck, and his wife Tuli filing for divorce and taking his three daughters with her. A year later, still unable to recover from the shock, Alvie wandered the streets in a haze, anesthetizing himself with alcohol, women and long drives. "Of course I can pretend I don't hurt, it's my specialty." But the dull, blunt hurt brewed stronger in the midnight downtown and the dawn Mazda, and as the fleeting pleasures and the lingering pain became closely intertwined, he tried to hold on to something, but couldn't simply let go of the past and face the future. As his bleak life continues, an unexpected call from his ex-wife, Tuli, drags Alvi out of the water, forcing him to face up to what life has brought him. As his consciousness repeatedly wanders between memories and reality, the hurt gradually blurs onto the page, brutal but hard to let go of. "I must save myself..." But how can he save himself this time?
