Finding Sobriety Why Is the Country Changing?

This is my actual third attempt to say what I have to say to try to explain what its like to be an alcoholic and addict, the progression of it, and my personal soul searching trying to understand the changes of treating addiction, and why the loss of life of addicts, my mind trying to make sense. I don't understand what is happening in my area and across the country in the changes of treating addiction and pain and the senseless loss of life these changes and causing citizens to be unable to be productive because of lack of treatment with drugs. Its my story of dealing with both illnesses at different times in my life. The personal agony I have felt in knowing what helped me, and watching so many others like me die in this opoid war, and my thinking trying to make sense of it all.