Publisher's Synopsis
In My Gut, I Don't Believe is an intimate coming of age memoir, set in a Catholic seminary in 1980s Dublin. Using private journals, the author shows his personal, psychological, emotional, sexual and intellectual growth as a young man, escaping a difficult mother and a Church demanding the submission of his mind, body and will.Torn between faith and doubt, safety and risk, love and fear, the memoir is a portrait of the young man trying to live the vow of celibacy while becoming aware of his need for affection, intimacy and love. It shows his efforts to live the vow of obedience while awakening to his need to obey himself. It provides an authentic, peerless, fly-on-the-wall insight into Catholic seminary life.
